HAPPY NEW YEAR!
2017 hasn't been the worst year I have ever had but, it still sucked all the same. Tons of drama, heartache, new diagnosis, and I won't even go into everything happening to our country....
Instead of focusing on the negatives though, I am going to focus on the positives. Here are some.
- Got a full time job.
- Started weeding out the toxic relationships.
- Gained some self confidence back.
- Working on making current relationships better.
Like I said, these are just a few of the biggies. Now, for what I plan to do with the new year!
- Play more games.
- Read more.
- Continue working on current relationships.
- Continue gaining more self confidence.
- Work on my blog.
- Start streaming.
- Eat right.
- Exercise
Now I know those last two are usually what EVERYONE'S new year resolutions are however, I HAVE to take them seriously or the consequences will be worse for me. I had been diagnosed with pre-diabetic PCOS (Polly Cystic Ovary Syndrome) back in October. I was doing well at first with the diet and exercising but, I was going off of fear. Once Halloween hit, I was hit with a sudden realization. The holidays are here and its all going to be food that I shouldn't be eating so what the hell was I going to do. On top of that, I started having some kind of allergic reaction to something (we still don't know what) in the form of hives and rashes. We are still working on figuring that one out and I am hoping it isn't the medicine I was put on because that was the only thing helping me be able to lose any kind of weight. So, on top of having to worry about the holidays, I had to stop taking the medicine. I got extremely discouraged and had the horrible mind set of "why bother" and stopped working out. I still ate mostly decently except around the actual holiday times. I was not careful at all at those times. Especially this past week that I have had off from work.
I know that was a huge mistake now as I am practically starting back at square one. At the time of my diagnoses, I was 210 pounds. After almost a month of working out and being on the medicine, I was down to 201. As of today, I am at 208. I honestly was expecting it to be worse and I am thankful that it wasn't but, it's time to kick my butt back into gear and get this weight off. I really don't want to become diabetic. I can't stand needles or the thought of having to prick my fingers all the time. I am going to do all I can to avoid that happening.
2018 is going to be my Year Of Change. That's what I am calling it. Though I do have family and friends that I love and I am going to still continue working on my relationships with them, I also need to focus more on myself. I have spent so much of my life focusing on the wants and needs of others that I have lost myself along the way. I had forgotten about how much I loved video games because I wanted to make sure my husband (also a gamer) got his time. Its going to be tricky since gaming is pretty time consuming and neither one of us have a lot of time to begin with but, we will work it out :) Since discovering the wonderful world of Twitch, I have been growing a curiosity about streaming and that growing curiosity has grown into a longing to join the ranks. So, this year, I want to start saving up and getting the basic things I need to get started. The most expensive thing I know I need right off the bat is..... a desktop computer strong enough to handle gaming and streaming. LOL! I know I know. I don't even have that. I haven't gamed on a computer since I was kid! We have always had consoles and I do plan to continue streaming with a console (I have almost all of them) but, through the computer which, I know I need to get a capture card for that and fully intend to.
The more I talk and think about all this and my other plans for the New Year, the more excited I am getting! Hopefully this time next year, I can start streaming. I may like my current job but, I definitely don't want to be working in a factory forever but, unfortunately, the world runs on money :( Oh well, I will get there someday. Hell, I would be happy if I could just go back to working part time ;) Maybe. I really just want to do this for fun and for the communities. I would love to have my own group of friends to hang out with! I am bound and determined to not let my fears get in the way!
I CAN DO THIS!
YEAR OF CHANGE!
I hope you all join me on my journey to self discovery!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
